An Unanticipated Early Start To A New Day

I actually woke up at 2 a.m.  I stayed in bed until 2:30 & was having too much anxiety to get back to sleep so I got up & made a cup of chamomile tea (thinking it would help alleviate the anxiety) & decided to do some computer stuff.  John got up a little while after I did (he was having trouble sleeping too).  I am now washing a load of sheets & John is upstairs gathering CDs to put into a box for another eBay listing.  As I'm writing this it's 2 minutes away from 3:59 a.m.  I couldn't find a picture of a 3:57 a.m. clock face.  Imagine that!  Lol!

Why am I anxiety filled?  I know you're thinking I'm probably stressing over the shop names but no, that's not it.  I don't know what it is.  This happens to me a lot lately.  I had a visit with my doctor on Friday. Various treatments tried over the past year just aren't working as they should so she is convinced there is "something else" at work here (in addition to the Lyme) & God bless her, she is bound & determined to find out what it is.  She filled out a lab order for me for a ton of blood tests which I will attempt to get done tomorrow morning.  

Yesterday I spent pretty much the entire day working outside.  I dug up a multitude of weeds this time rather than spraying them.  I also planted some new bushes we bought last week at a 50% off sale.  Not all of them. There are 3 remaining.  I just couldn't continue.  Of course the weather has been crazy this year with warm temperatures coming way too early, everything blooming, then a heavy frost wreaking havoc on everything, then an early & blazing hot summer.  The plants don't seem to know what's going on.  I've got 2 azalea bushes full of buds & an iris budding out in one garden ... yet in another garden I had to trim everything down in preparation for the winter because it had all gone dormant already!  After doing as much work as I could I came inside, took a shower, & I was quite pitiful until bedtime.  I'm apparently getting "too old" for all this yard work.  My ankles hurt, my thighs hurt, my wrists hurt, & I could barely walk.  I was so tired, even after taking a nap for an hour or so.  I couldn't wait to go to bed & anticipated myself having a very good sleep, especially considering the fact that I had taken a hydrocodone before climbing into bed.  Well, you know how this story ends ... wide awake at 2 a.m.  

John was helping me for a while outside but had a scary episode which made him stop. Some of you know of his health issues.  I was weeding in the front of the house & he was in back planting one of the new bushes.  I decided I needed a bottle of water & thought I would take one to him as well.  I came around to the back door & saw him placing dirt around a plant he had just placed in the ground.  I waked into the house, got 2 bottles of water, walked back outside in what I'm sure was less than 30 seconds ... & when I glanced toward where I had seen him last he was lying on the ground.  I thought he was just taking a rest but when I got to him he had actually fainted!  He was extremely weak.  I got him to his feet but he had trouble walking.  I got him into the house where he sat for a while drinking the water.  I then convinced him to take a shower & lie down.  He was feeling a bit better after the shower & assured me he was just going to sleep so there was no reason for me to stop what I was doing outside.  After he fell asleep I went back outside & a while later he came outside & said he was feeling better but he wasn't going to do any more yard work.  I said that was fine.  He was pretty much okay for the rest of the day but did say he felt a bit "out of it."  He really hasn't been doing very well recently ... really worrisome stuff for me ... but getting him to see a doctor is next to impossible.  I think he has a 6-month checkup in September & he is planning to just discuss these things with his doctor then.  I am really concerned though   : (   I was actually thinking of taking a trip to Pittsburgh later this month to visit my aunt & cousin for a few days but I'm not going anywhere now.  I would just be too concerned about leaving him alone.  We only have each other to rely on.  No friends or family nearby, no neighbors to turn to, etc.  

Today the plan is to finish going through the flea market stuff upstairs.  I actually decided last Thursday to get into the boxes & price things thinking I'd do a yard sale with my aunt when I was still thinking about going to visit her.  However, with the exception of a huge amount of Hallmark Christmas ornaments & a huge amount of DVDs, there really isn't much to get excited about.  I decided it wasn't even worth giving these things to the church that was advertising for donations for an auction the week before last.  (I had talked about this in a recent post).  So ... I removed all the price stickers I had placed on the items & put them in boxes to take to Goodwill.  John will probably continue to sell the DVDs on eBay & I don't know what I'll do with the Hallmarks ... maybe just give them to Goodwill too.  I have 2 or 3 more boxes of things to go through & then that will be the end of that.  Once it's all out of here it will free up a nice chunks of space. Not a huge chunk, mind you, but enough to make a bit of a difference in that one part of that one room.  That will be nice   : )   Of course next week I will be able to start selling things in my new shops!  Hopefully that will go well   : )      

Well, I apologize for all the rambling this morning.  Such is life when you get an early start on the day I guess   : )   I actually have some pretty neat things to show you once I get some pictures taken of them. Maybe I'll work on that today as well   : )   Have a wonderful Sunday!