Panic Revisited

In yesterday's post I mentioned panic, specifically the panic I have recently begun to feel regarding all the gifts I want to stitch for Christmas.  I actually started my Christmas stitching a couple months ago so you would think this panicky feeling would not be a part of my life, but it is.  This is just the tip of the iceberg though.  I look around me & see total chaos in my  home.  I've written before about the moving boxes everywhere, the clutter, etc.  I've lived like this for so long now you would think I wouldn't be bothered by it, but I am.  I have always been a very neat, very clean, very "a place for everything, & everything in its place" kind of person.  I have made references to my OCD in the past but it's not a joke.  I really do have OCD.  This cartoon really is me.

 

Although I have sort of shelved the OCD part of me that needs neatness & order in things, it still bothers me very much to live as though we just emptied the moving truck.  I hope the new year will bring me & my DH (A) another moving truck to move us somewhere else, or (B) the ability to graciously accept that we are stuck here in the devil's playground & have to make the best of it.  

Hmmmm ... I got a bit off track there.  This post was supposed to be about panic, specifically the panic of Christmas approaching & the realization that all I want to accomplish is not going to be accomplished.  I was looking for a cartoon to illustrate this & in my search I came across this video for a song called "Where's the Line to See Jesus?"  I had never heard of this song before.  I clicked on the link to watch the video & it certainly gave me pause.  Christmas is not to be preceded by weeks of intense cleaning & baking. Christmas is not overloading my home with decorations. Christmas is not spending money I don't have.  Christmas is not a time for stress. Christmas is a time to find peace in God's gift of love to us.  

I feel less panicked already   : )